There is one thing I wish for more than anything else and that is that my children, when they are all grown, will think I did a good job being a mom. If I succeed at that then I am content.
Hopefully I will make it if I can be half as good as my parents have been and are to me. They have always been there for me and I am not sure I would have handled my "divorce" + being left to be the sole parent for my kids so well had I not had their support and help. I just got a call from my dad and he said he will come here and pick the kids up on Friday. In his own words: "You will probably have a lot of stuff to do preparing for your party on Saturday." So, not only will they be caring for my kids all weekend - they will also save me a one hour drive each way. And they best help is always the help you don't have to ask for.
I have thought about writing them a letter telling them how much they mean to me and what I really think of them. This has been in my head for a while...now i just have to make sure I do it. And I will...In the prescence of all my readers...LOL...I herenow promise to write that letter before the end of April. Just do it Anneli!
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"I have thought about writing them a letter telling them how much they mean to me and what I really think of them. This has been in my head for a while .... I herenow promise to write that letter before the end of April."
ReplyDeleteSo u know that you have that much time?? You can see that far out in front??
I have been through this stage ... of the realisation of just how much was done for us three kids [two brothers] and how little we gave back in return *:x* ... especially being boys ... when i look back on it now, Mother's life could only be described as that of a 'unpaid domestic' ... she waited on us kids 'hand and foot' ... made all the sacrifices .. always fully dependable .. bless her!
But being boys we just laid back and took it .. without question or demonstrative appreciation.
Luckily, not long after i had left home, before my first marriage, i suddenly felt an overwhelming NEED to thank both of them for the love, support and the opportunities they had unselfishly provided me.
It was such a strong feeling that i could not live with it inside me, and was forced to drop everything i was doing, make a phone call to be sure they where home, jump on my motor bike and drive the hour or so back to the family home and pour my heart out to them.
It was a very emotional time, for us all. I will never forget it! For ONCE in my life i had demonstrated my love and appreciation.
They both died not long after .... within a short time of each other .... and when i think of the burden and remorse i would be carrying if i had NOT forced my self to make that effort when i did ... then i simply *grimace* at the thought.
Do it NOW Anneli .... don't wait until the end of April ... do it NOW!!
Make it your top priority because if one of them passes before u 'get around' to it .... you will carry that miserable load for the rest of your life! You will never find peace. It will live in the corner of your soul, niggling you for the rest of your time.
I know how fortunate i was to act upon the calling when it came!
Put on ur Nikis and 'Just Do It' ... forget housework, blogging, boyfriends, lunches .... all the things that make u put it off ....
forget those things, even yourself, and just do it - Now!!
And then .... do it again and again, at every suitable opportunity, until there are no more left.
*bug supportive hug*
Well Jamar...I am not a boy...so I HAVE told them. But I thought writing things down would make it more...clear...and easier to get all out at once...and also nice for them to be able to read it over and over...
ReplyDelete*massor av kramar och ett stort leende*
+ my parents are rather young 61 and 63...so please do not talk about them dying...not yet...if they where 75-80 it would be more appropriate...I know we all can die at any given moment...but most of us don't until we are...old.
ReplyDelete"before my first marriage..." first of how many??? ;) I have never been married...have never had that dream so many girls have about a white dress and all eyes on them in church...I have always dreamt about places instead...Hawaii, Petra, Madagascar etc... It's a curse I have - always longing to be somewhere else...not necessarily with a husband at my side. LOL
OMG .. i am sure i have offended/upset you!!
ReplyDeleteNo, you are not a boy, and i am sure that you HAVE told them ... that was a thoughtless assumption on my behalf ..*sorry*.. and please accept my deepest apologies for being so insensitive ... of course it was NEVER my place to make such an animated suggestion ..*displays humility*.. often i tend to loose sight of my place in the order of things ... thanks for so deftly putting me in my 'proper place' ..*grimace*.. as i said, i tend to forget myself regularly, an 'occupational hazard' of the anonymity offered by the 'net' *grin*.
*offers reconcillatory hug*
Take it easy! I am not that easily offended - remeber the reason why this blog has an ugly title? *smiles*
ReplyDeleteBut thanks for your concern and all the hugs...and again for all the thoughtful and intelligent comments. It makes it so much more fun to write new posts. :)))