Paper

I hate paper: sheets of paper, bills, forms, applications...they have taken over my world! Spent 2 hours today cleaning my desk from piles of paper. Ought to do it at home too but not sure I will survive that. My home office is a place of total chaos. It probably says something about my life and about me as a person. I even got angry today at a secretary at work becuase she is so strict about filling out forms and I am so stupid with those things. I never quite understand what to fill in. So thank God that I live in a country that does not rely on forms and applications! :)))

(That was irony...)

Why do I bother?

He has done it again! My ex that is. Never ceases to disappoint me, reaching new all time lows all the time.

Today it was a discussion about our vacation. In my world focus should be on the kids, making sure that they have a summer break as long as it possibly can be. Guess I was wrong...my ex has vacation 2 weeks in August when I have already started my work again.(If I have a job...but that is another problem). He also has 2 weeks in July when I am on vacation too. Guess which of the 2 weeks he wants? Yup! The 2 weeks in July. The result? Our(? does not feel like ours anymore)kids have to spend 2weeks in "after-school" activities before school starts.

It really should not affect me nor surprise me...because this is how he has acted for 1 ½ years now. And still...it made be cry like a baby at the kithcen table an hour ago. Damn it! Why do I even bother and why do I think that he would ever think like me...how could he!? He does not even have half a brain.

Wish a could delete him...and replace him with a father who actually cares about his kids and not just his own ego. I know there are quite a few out there...too bad I did such a bad choice picking a sperm donor...

Lazy

I admit it! I am a lazy person.

After 5 days holiday one might think I would feel ok with going back to work tomorrow. But not me. Nah! If I could I would stay home another week or two. Not that I would do anything special...just sleep, read, do some window shopping, catch some sun if possible, prepare for my half marathon and just relax...think, contemplate...get the time to get into the zen zone.

And the kids would be somewhere else...Is that a horrible thought? I mean it is not that I love them, I just have such a huge need to be alone...or at least to not be a mom for a while.

To top my dream off I would have people bringing me food and others cleaning my house, doing my garden and my laundry...and yes! some lucky bastard could get to file all my papers. LOL! Would be the worst job of them all since my desk is just like the rest of my life - a mess!

Uncomfortable questions

3 times during this Easter holiday my daughter, 10 years old, has asked me:
"Mom what does horny mean?"

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For some reason this word has come up when we have been listening to radio in the car or watching TV shows. And I usually answer questions about sex and "where do babies come from". But this...

I could be truthful and say:
"Horny is the state of mind your mother is in most of the time."
But something tells me that would be a very bad idea.

Sugar lumps!

This is hilaroius! And if you dont like it...get off my blog! ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtbQaJzZh1k

The ultimate luxory

What is the ultimate luxory? I guess it depends on the person and the situation they are in. Some might say freedom and others a walk- in closet with a 100 pair of shoes.

As a single mom the biggest luxory for me is time...time to do nothing, time to my self, time to be alone or with friends and/or boyfriend. But one luxory has been constant for me since I was about 10 years old. It is an absolute unecessary thing and maybe that is why it feels soooo damn luxorious to me. I am talking about perfume. Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Imagine walking around the perfume department looking at all the beautiful bottles, like jewells glistening on the shelves. The scent of vanilla, blackcurrant, cedarwood, almonds, citrus, apples, liqourice(! yes I have one...), cinnamon and maybe musk. Not lilys...not roses...not my thing. I usually fall for sweet, warm, spicy and kind of heavy perfumes. I love when I find a perfume that makes me wanna eat myself if you know what I mean. *smiles*
And I love the hunt...to find new favorites...to have 5 must haves on my wishlist...to have a perfume that my friend have not discovered yet. Vain? Me? ....hell yes!

So for all you boys out there who want to make your woman happy - buy her perfume!( Anything from Jean-Paul Gaultier or Dolce et Gabbana smells wonderful.)
And if you feel Chantal Thomass (the pale one with a black mini garder around the bottle) in the air...it might be me. ;)